An experiment.

I’ve been studying the Enneagram Personality Type system for over 20 years. I love it. I find it amazingly accurate and helpful to find out what our personality tendencies are and to then be able to work on improving ourselves.

The Enneagram talks of the 9 personality ‘types’ in the world. Each type is motivated by something else. I happen to be a number Four. “The Individualist’.

Type Four in Brief


Enneagram Type Four .The Sensitive, Introspective Type:
Expressive, Dramatic, Self-Absorbed, and Temperamental

Fours are self-aware, sensitive, and reserved. They are emotionally honest, creative, and personal,

Key Motivations for type 4

…4s want to express themselves and their individuality, to create and surround themselves with beauty, to maintain certain moods and feelings, to withdraw to protect their self-image, to take care of emotional needs before attending to anything else, to attract a “rescuer…”

One of the downsides of the Individualist is that we tend to have deep dark emotional volatility, can brood and have intense moods —

or as my boyfriend says

‘You think too much’. (Hey now.  ME??)

Yea I think most peoples unhealthy emotions lie in thinking too much!

(Every Enneagram type has their higher healthy qualities and lower not so healthy qualities).

I get a daily ‘thought in my email from the www.enneagraminstitute.com. Todays was

What would it be like if you had no intense emotions or dramas today? Who are you without your emotional reactivity?

Wow. This is a good one.

  • What would life   be like if I just stopped the drama and intensity?
  • Who would I be without my emotional reactivity?
  • If I reigned in the moodiness?

UM lets see… Id be

…an empty shell.

…a peaceful spirit.

…an open vessel.

…pure divine love and wonder?

I dunno. Sounds good though.

I was in such turmoil yesterday I felt like I was OOBER(?) sensitive to every little thing.

Sensitivity to the world itself?

It’s hard to put in words but it’s like my skin was turned inside out and I felt raw and overly vulnerable.Not a new feeling for me. It is almost a reality most of the time.

Even in the grocery store. I had to get outta there and INTO MY CAR where the safety was!

I feel that way often.


So, this is how I’ve lived most my 55 years.

Others might not be able to tell that I’m wearing my skin inside , but trust me it’s there.

I would never wish this over sensitivity thing on anyone. I have been to many therapists and counselors and still I have the same ‘sensitivity to life issues.


Ok, for today — I decided for fun and as an experiment I’ll tone DOWN the volume of my emotions!


I wont be dramatic or volatile  today.

I will be calm and try these thoughts instead:

‘EVERYTHING will work out’.

Everything IS working out’.

‘Its all good. Its all fine.’

‘Im cooooool’.


Ok my experiment for the day starts


Thanks for reading!

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