FRIDAY Free Flow poems- ‘ARE YOU GONNA SHOWER THIS WEEK?’

‘ARE YOU GONNA SHOWER THIS WEEK?’ Bob came home the other day, looked in on me in my art room and asked ‘Are you gonna shower this week?’ That’s always been our funny inside joke when he sees me enthralled with my creative energy. You creative people might know that feeling when you’re too enthralled by what your creating and dont want to stop to eat or pee or shower? Definitely not do your hair!! (oh btw, I havent had a haircut since Christmas.) Those creative wild days are nice. I used to make art feverishly— every day almost (for years and years). Getting new ideas would be so exciting to me. Being an artist, writer or any creative soul I think we sometimes live for new ideas! Lately though I have been in a bit of an art making lull. (Actually since my cat died early January) Since I started…

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TUESDAY THOUGHTS- “Leap and the net MIGHT appear.”

‘LEAP AND THE NET MIGHT APPEAR?’ ‘A calling comes when we embrace the pain, not avoid it‘.-Mary Karr Lately I have been ‘leaping out’ into my new writing life. I feel that I have been called to write, so I am doing it. NO guarantees. Its such new territory.  At times it feels like the scariest thing I’ve ever done, to be so vulnerable and to write out my truths, but I will keep doing it. Keep leaping. I used to make a lot of art with this quote on it. I sold quite a few pieces over the years (at art shows and at my gallery/studio.) Lately I have a new take on the meaning of  it. Instead of ‘Leap and the net will appear’, ‘Leap and the net MIGHT appear’ seems far more appropriate.  ‘Leap and the net MIGHT appear’? Sometimes when you leap (even with total faith that the net will be there) you…

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MONDAY MEMORIES- IMPERIAL PALACE- MELT DOWN.

(EXCERPT FROM UPCOMING MEMOIR- Continuation from chapter ‘THE IMPERSONATORS LIFE”) IMPERIAL PALACE MELTDOWN  SO AFTER THE RENO GIG and getting my feet wet as Streisand I felt pretty good overall about my chances of getting called back. The way this show worked, I was told was  that the producers would start the new impersonators at the other shows first, not the Imperial Palace, to get their feet wet  before they put them in to the BIG SHOW. I guess they wanted you to prove you could do it. I thought I had proved  to myself and the producers that I could do the job (getting those few good reviews)  even though I did  have  a rocky start. They told me that there was a waiting list to get into the BIG show at the Imperial Palace so I had to wait for the call. Anyway, a month or so before…

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THURSDAY THOUGHTS- ‘SIT YOUR ASS DOWN!’

Stephen King said  from his book “On Writing”: ‘Just sit your ass down’! He was asked  “Do you do it for the money,?’ He said. ‘My answer is “NO’ Dont now and never did’. Yes Ive made a great deal of dough from my writing but I never set a single word down on paper with the thought of being paid for it. I have written because it fulfilled me. I did it for the buzz. I did it for the pure joy of the thing. If you can do it for the JOY, you can do it forever’.‘Writing is MAGIC, as much the water of life as any other creative art. The water is freee. So drink. Drink and be filled up!’ ‘OK. OK. IM SITTING MY ASS DOWN!’ I honestly feel that Ive been ‘called’ to write. Its hard to explain but its not like something I chose. The…

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3 POEMS A DAY

SO MANY PEOPLE So many people have the blues it seems to me these days Annie’s menopause makes her sweat and Vickys odd malaise My friend Sue says her lifes a mess and her husbands just a bore! Linda wonders why shes here and Ella just wants ……more. Sharon ran off to a commune says ‘human beings suck! Rachels mourning cuz her mom just died and shes also out of bucks. Angie needs time off  she moans she’s working way too hard Monas kids are causing grief her teen totalled her car! So many people have the blues or am I noticing it now? hang in there friends ‘This too must pass’ you’ll get through it somehow 3 poems a day 3 poems a day is my fun new goal Write it all down its good for the soul No need to know why or where it will lead, 3 poems…

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TUESDAY TRUTHS. ‘Going into the stinky tunnel’

JOURNAL NOTES ON MY MEMOIR WRITING ‘Call it whatever you want, but it’s the quality of moving forward with the writing even in the depths of despair about it. I learned to write anyway, no matter what’. Linda Joy Myers   Damn. Today I have been facing the next chapters of my life, writing my Memoir.  I got up my NERVE to finally face this stuff (after all these years of not looking at it). OMG! People have said ‘Oh Ill bet that writing is therapeutic and cathartic, eh? Well honestly it feels far different than that. So many awful scary painful memories are surfacing. It feels a lot like a root canal or labor. I’m sure that as soon as all this pain and agony is over (and I’m on the other side of it all ) I will feel SO much better. So relieved. The baby will finally come out…

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MONDAY MEMORIES.’The Impersonator Life’ Im a fraud?

(EXCERPT FROM UPCOMING MEMOIR) ‘THE IMPERSONATOR LIFE’ (IM A FRAUD?) So I got the job impersonating Streisand! WOW I honestly  didnt think I did that good but..I suppose I did ‘good enough’. The first gig I got was at John Asquagas Nugget Hotel in Reno, Nevada. My agent said its a bit like Vegas but smaller. ha. They flew me from Denver to Reno. Actually Sparks, Nevada. The show was called “LEGENDS LIVE’. I didnt even have a proper Streisand wig back then. I just sorta did my own hair and figured I sang enough like Streisand that it would be ok.   I was very nervous during rehearsals but also I was so new at the whole thing (singing in a big show!) that I was inspired to do a great job with it. I do have a part of me that is very determined. My bf calls it the “Ill…

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FRIDAY FREE FLOWING POEMS

Do you ever just feel burned out tired and exhausted? Well recently when I was going through a severe  burnout phase with my art business (after a series of non stop art shows)  I wrote all these poems in about a month. You can tell I was tired.haa   Here are a few.  I highly recommend writing poems. They are healing! 4. TRIPPED Tripped and fell.. over my sadness into the deep dark hole.. couldnt get up couldnt get out …stagnant soul. Bruised my face..scraped my knees swollen from sadness a new life please? REST Just want rest.. nothing more.. exhaustion.. to the core. Stop this world stop the train Give me sleep… my frazzled brain. Please no questions no blank stares no more art talk to sell my wares. Too burned out to say a word this stories over this lifes absurd My zest has gone just wilted flowers cant…

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FRIDAY FREE FLOWING POEMS

FAT SKINNY AND IN BETWEEN Fat skinny and in between. yeah Ive been those sizes ….. Was I more content when bones stuck out? nah I was not wiser. I thought it equalled happy to be more thin than stout. what a precious waste of time What WAS that all about? HAHA What a worry all the years concerned I was always in a hurry to get those cal’ries burned. SO here I sit past 50 50 years on earth concerned about the size of boobs cellulite and girth?. What use did all that do me? I thought …’I might just die!’ If I had excess blubber.. Oh dam a wicked lie! My kitties they still love me and my face still loves the sun fat, thin and in between I think my worries…done!  ‘A WAITRESS AT THE STEAKHOUSE A waitress at the steakhouse as she filled my iced tea…

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THURSDAY THOUGHTS- Ying/Yang

YING/YANG  or ‘THE DEVIL in the ANGEL’ and “BEAUTY or THE BEAST’ ‘THE DEVIL in the ANGEL’ This morning Im feeling extreeeemely tired from my cat (Kung Fu) who decided to go ape shit wild at 12 :30 am, right when I was going into that wonderful REM sleep and also at 4 AM screaming and scraping on everything in the bedroom. He starts by scratching hard on the tv then the papers near my bed, then he just lets out this awful wail (like he’s being tortured) and runs around like a bat outta hell all over the house. He has done this since he was a baby (He’s now 3). Last night was one of his worst terrorizing nights. He started at 12:30. Did it again at 3 am…then 3:30, then 4 am. ARGHHH!!  I do have a large water spray bottle next to my bed which is at…

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