TUESDAY TRUTHS- IS YOUR GREATEST WEAKNESS YOUR GREATEST STRENGTH?

IS YOUR GREATEST WEAKNESS YOUR GREATEST STRENGTH??  I had a dream that jolted me up last night. This dream had a moral to it. You know how some dreams don’t make much sense overall but you get a different feeling or vibe when you wake up in the morning?  You sense this  moral that comes out of the story of your dream which changes your whole mood for the day? Well, today I feel a shift.  I feel a whole new vibe about life. Funny but this shift in attitude happened in conjunction  with the recent ‘Strawberry Moon’.  You know that Solar eclipse/summer solstice  thing which happened last weekend?  I read about the summer solstice online. I will paraphrase:  This Strawberry moon, summer solstice, this coming together hasn’t occurred since 1960’s and won’t happen again till 2062′.  I just realized that something has also ‘come together’ in my brain.  In conjunction with…

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TUESDAY TRUTHS- ‘LOOK BACK OR DON’T LOOK BACK?’

  ‘DONT LOOK BACK. YOURE NOT GOING THAT WAY!’ I have been doing a lot of looking back while writing my Memoir, which is why I’m bringing this topic up today. WHY LOOK  back?  Since starting to write my memoir I’ve been asked by a few well meaning people—— why bother to look back?  Whats the point in it? Isn’t it painful? Whats the purpose of putting yourself through pain and rehashing the past? Good questions. Why not just live in the now and not bother with the past? I do appreciate that point of view. TO MOVE AHEAD YOU MUST PUT THE PAST BEHIND YOU!  Yep. I hear that too. BUT then there is the opposite argument. ‘THOSE WHO DO NOT REMEMBER THE PAST ARE CONDEMNED TO REPEAT IT’. After the Holocaust  the Spanish philosopher, essayist, poet, novelist Geroge Santayana made that popular statement which became somewhat of a mantra for the…

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TUESDAY TRUTH- Embracing Uncertainty

‘EMBRACING UNCERTAINTY’ ‘Some stories dont have a clear beginning, middle and end. Life is about not knowing, taking the moment, and making the best of it, without knowing whats going to happen next. Delicous ambiguity.– Gilda Radner As I sat down to write more content for my upcoming Memoir (or Memoirs), which I do every morning   it dawned on me how uncertain this whole process of writing is. BUT then again life itself is very uncertain right? These days it seems almost everything in the world has an undercurrent of uncertainty. From politics to job security , terrorism, technology to… relationships; they all seem to have the thread of uncertainty in them. I cant really think of anything that is totally CERTAIN anymore. Ok, there’s life, death and taxes. yea! So how do we  live with and be at peace with ‘not knowing’ things? Living most of my life as an artist…

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TUESDAY TRUTHS- ‘Write a lot. Read a lot’.

TUESDAY TRUTHS ‘The only way to become a successful writer is to do just two things: ‘WRITE A LOT AND READ A LOT”–Stephen King I didn’t post my MONDAY MEMORIES blog post yesterday because honestly I was a bit under the weather with dreaded allergies and spent much of the day sneezing and blowing my nose. FUN! I did feel a wee bit guilty that I didn’t do my writing commitment for Monday, because Ive made this writing pledge (to MYSELF) to do it no matter what. I told Bob I actually missed it! I’ve become fond of my new writing habit  but hey that’s ok. Here are my  Tuesday thoughts. (Journal entry from today) ‘Today is Tuesday. I’ve got allergies. The spring trees are blooming quickly.  Proud pretty purple trees peppering the neighborhood with their aromas and arrogance. New bright white bulbed trees spreading their glory around with flair but that also means that  my…

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TUESDAY THOUGHTS- “Leap and the net MIGHT appear.”

‘LEAP AND THE NET MIGHT APPEAR?’ ‘A calling comes when we embrace the pain, not avoid it‘.-Mary Karr Lately I have been ‘leaping out’ into my new writing life. I feel that I have been called to write, so I am doing it. NO guarantees. Its such new territory.  At times it feels like the scariest thing I’ve ever done, to be so vulnerable and to write out my truths, but I will keep doing it. Keep leaping. I used to make a lot of art with this quote on it. I sold quite a few pieces over the years (at art shows and at my gallery/studio.) Lately I have a new take on the meaning of  it. Instead of ‘Leap and the net will appear’, ‘Leap and the net MIGHT appear’ seems far more appropriate.  ‘Leap and the net MIGHT appear’? Sometimes when you leap (even with total faith that the net will be there) you…

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TUESDAY TRUTHs- “One word at a time’

I woke up feeling shaky a lot about this whole MEMOIR thing. Will I be able to concentrate and focus on this book enough? Will I be disciplined enough to hang in there with this project? Will I really be able to unravel and piece together my life, the way I envision it? Will I have the BRAVERY it takes to look at some of the hard stuff?  (to open those old cans of worms and relive the pain that I KNOW I will be doing soon  in the upcoming chapters)  including my ex husband ICK!? BUT then there’s this other calm knowing voice inside of me that just knows that I love this whole writing process.It feels like ‘me’. Feels like the thing I was meant to do. I love everything about writing……from the feeling of the flow of pen to paper, the putting words together, the expressing, the telling of my truths in my own…

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TUESDAY TRUTH- ‘Write or Die!?’

(EXCERPT FROM UPCOMING MEMOIR) ‘WRITE OR DIE’ My BIGBOY cat died about 2 months ago. Ever since my boy died I have been in this crazed whirlwind writing frenzy. Its like my pen has taken off running with my brain. ‘Non stop verbal vomit coming out of me’ I joked with my friends. ‘I just have this need to write now more than I ever have!’ My friends said “Just keep writing!”  So……..I did.  My pen it seemed had a mind of its own so I just allowed it to run. I was really  going through this deep grieving over my boy. Horrible  gut wrenching sadness about losing my ‘fur child’. Ive never had human kids so this was the closest Id come to losing a child. BigBoy was with us for 16 years . It hit me  hard, losing him to an awful cancerous tumor in his mouth. When he first got the…

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TUESDAY TRUTH- ‘Im a three legged stool’

(EXCERPT FROM UPCOMING MEMOIR) ‘IM A THREE LEGGED STOOL’ Since the age of 8 I was always a loner, the weird one, the isolated oddball. I always felt different, freaky, sensitive, alienated, awkward, big nosed and I was also a chubby kid. I always had a weight problem and felt very self conscious about my excess fat. Maybe because of all of that I was also a very creative child! Creativity was my refuge. I started writing diaries to deal with my feelings of alienation. I wrote feverishly and obsessively about my ‘boy problems’ (OH I was so dramatic!) how I felt like the oddity, the outcast at school etc.    I would write every night before  I went to bed.It was like my ritual. The pen  was  my friend. Check out the detailed words, concise and intricate handwriting, even back  at age 8. It was also fun writing my diary in…

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